Daily Prompt: Blindly

Not wanting to know what I will see, I close my eyes.

Blindly, I lay myself bare.

The eyes of all see all of me.

Their eyes, like fingers, search me.

And I wonder: Is the scream trying to escape my mouth one of pleasure or pain?

These words are inspired by the above image, from the anime A Lull in the Sea.

Thank you to littleanimeblog — that’s where I saw the image.

And thank you to wordsareallihave, for making me aware that today’s Daily Prompt was “Blindly.” She inspired me to write this post.

Why I’m Uneasy About “Thirteen Reasons Why”

So, earlier today I was made aware of Thirteen¬†Reasons Why, the Netflix show based on the bestselling book about a girl — Hannah Baker¬†— who leaves behind tape recordings explaining the 13 reasons why she decided to kill herself.

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I haven’t read the book yet.

I haven’t seen the show yet.

So, what I say next could be totally off, but:

It sounds like Hannah is blaming everyone except herself.

What I mean by that is:

Ultimately, it wasn’t any of these people who killed Hannah¬†— it was Hannah herself. Hannah¬†chose to die.

The premise — a young woman leaves behind tape recordings for people to listen to in order to guilt trip them for a choice she made of her own free will — comes across as Hannah¬†refusing to accept responsibility for her actions, passing off the burden of responsibility to the people in her life by saying “I did this because of you.”

To which I respond: “No, Hannah. You didn’t. There was only one person’s hand on that knife, and it was yours.”

Why I Stopped Watching “Game of Thrones”

I’m a fan of George R.R. Martin’s A Song of Ice and Fire series, the book series HBO’s Game of Thrones is based on.

I consider it superior to The Lord of the Rings.

It is the reason why I consider it superior to The Lord of the Rings that is also the reason why I made the choice to no longer watch Game of Thrones.

My reason why can be summed up by this quote:

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An example of “life in all its light and darkness” can be seen in book 2, A Clash of Kings, where a knight (Sandor Clegane) demands a song from a young maiden (Sansa Stark):

“I’ll have that song. Florian and Jonquil, you said.” His dagger was out, poised at her throat. “Sing, little bird. Sing for your little life.”
Her throat was dry and tight with fear, and every song she had ever known had fled from her mind. “Please don’t kill me,” she wanted to scream, “please don’t.” She could feel him twisting the point, pushing it into her throat, and she almost closed her eyes again, but then she remembered. It was not the song of Florian and Jonquil, but it was a song. Her voice sounded small and thin and tremulous in her ears.

“Gentle Mother, font of mercy,
save our sons from war, we pray,
stay the swords and stay the arrows,
let them know a better day.
Gentle Mother, strength of women,
help our daughters through this fray,
soothe the wrath and tame the fury,
teach us all a kinder way.”

Here is the same scene — Sandor confronting Sansa — in the show:

No demand for a song.

No hymn sung.

None of the “light” that George R.R. Martin speaks of.

Another example of Game of Throne‘s lack of “light”: The Red Wedding.

After insulting Walder Frey by marrying a woman who isn’t his daughter, Robb Stark goes to the wedding of his mother’s brother, Edmure — who is also marrying a Frey — in order to make amends.¬†The thinking being Walder was pissed about one wedding not happening, so maybe making another happen will set everything right.

It doesn’t.

In the show, Robb’s pregnant wife is stabbed in the womb by one of Walder’s men in the middle of ¬†the wedding feast, kicking off a massacre known as “The Red Wedding.”

In the book — book 3, A Storm of Swords — Robb’s wife isn’t with him at the wedding. He doesn’t want to insult Walder further by bringing the woman he married to the wedding that is supposed to make Walder not hate him anymore. So she stays behind. And she’s not pregnant yet, either.

So why have Robb’s now-pregnant wife at The Red Wedding if not for the shock value of seeing her get stabbed to death?

It is pornographic violence. i.e., Violence for the sake of violence.

The Red Wedding — in the book and in the show — is horrible.

But the show seems to amp up the horror for no other reason than “Because it can.”

There is a lot to admire about Game of Thrones.

The acting is good.

The special effects are good.

The sets, costumes, and props are good.

The music is good.

But the writing…

To sum up my issue with the writing in one sentence:

We have time to see Daenarys’ butt…

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…but we don’t have time to hear Septon Meribald’s “Broken Man” speech.

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How that speech ends:

“…my brothers were all going, and I would not be left behind. William said I could be his squire, though Will was no knight, only a potboy armed with a kitchen knife he’d stolen from an inn. He died upon the Stepstones, and never struck a blow. It was fever did for him, and for my brother Robin. Owen died from a mace that split his head apart, and his friend Jon Pox was hanged for rape.”
“The War of the Ninepenny Kings?” asked Hyle Hunt.
“So they called it, though I never saw a king, nor earned a penny. It was a war, though. That it was.”

My Journey As A Writer (So Far)

A month ago, I started writing a screenplay for a short film.

Earlier today, thinking more about why I was writing a short film, I had a revelation. Or, rather, I had the same revelation again and found that it was as true as ever:

I’m¬†writing because I’m angry.

Why am I angry?

This is why:

You don’t have to look long to find examples of mediocre films made by Christians…

And, as a film-loving Christian — specifically: a film-loving Catholic — I wanted to do something about that.

I realized that it wasn’t enough to critique bad art — I had to create art too.

I couldn’t just curse the darkness — I had to light a candle.

Only now… I’ve realized that’s awful motivation for writing.

Why?

Because:

I can only be driven by negative emotions for so long before I crash.

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My problem is: I feel like I’m drowning in a sea of negativity.

I don’t spend as much time as I used to paying attention to mediocre art, but it’s still there. Sapping my vitality like a leech.

sigh

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And I’m sorry I’ve been away for a little while. Lately content on my blog has been scarce, and my involvement on other peoples’ blogs — Liking, commenting, or reblogging — has been non-existent.

I¬†just haven’t been feeling myself lately.

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As always, just trying to figure out what to do with my life…

I want to be the kind of person who, standing in front of the pearly gates at the moment of their death, God¬†says “Well done” to.**

But, I have a long, long way to go to be that kind of person.

**”Well done, good and faithful servant.”
~Matthew 25:21

Feminism’s Double Standard?

As a man, when discussing abortion I often hear words to the effect of “You’re not a woman, so what you think doesn’t matter.”

So, honest question:

Why is it considered OK for a woman to give her views on issues facing men, but not vice versa — it’s not OK for a man to give his views on women’s issues.

For example:

A woman, Kali Holloway, writing about what it means to be a man.

Specifically: Writing about masculinity.*

More specifically: Writing about toxic masculinity: Toxic masculinity is killing men: The roots of male trauma

My thoughts on this question:

Since “masculinity” — i.e., how men see themselves and their fellow man — is, as the meaning of the word implies, an issue that uniquely effects men, should a woman have a say in such an issue?

On the one hand: Yes. How men see themselves effects not just men, but women too. Specifically: It effects how men will treat women.

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On the other hand: No. A woman will never experience, in the same way that a man will experience, what it feels like to hear words like “Be a man.” i.e.: A woman will never be effected in the same way that a man will be by the issue of masculinity. (Hence why I said that masculinity is an issue that “uniquely effects” men.)

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Conclusion:

So, if it’s OK for a woman to give her views on, for lack of a better term, “man subjects” like the question of “What does it mean to be masculine?” since masculinity effects not just men but women too, than how is it not OK for men to talk about “women subjects” like, for example, abortion, since the death of offspring does effect men too by, for example, denying a man the opportunity¬†to be a father.

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Finding Nemo (2003)

*Masculinity: Possession of the qualities traditionally associated with men.