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Naked Disclosures

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“Nothing is really little as long as it is genuine.”

The temptation to be like the world is as close to us as a mother kangaroo is to her her baby. It’s normal for people, for humans like us to crave for acceptance from the world we live in. We’d rather take nasty, second-hand, fifty-percent meant compliments rather than have genuine, authentic, and rebuking kind of conversations. We’d choose to suffer the guilt of not being true on our own little bubbles, our rooms and the closed comfort of our homes than to reveal who we truly are and what we truly feel to everyone around us. Including those who confess they’re just like us – the ones whom you share the same faith with, the same blood with, in one lifetime or another. We get so caught up by becoming someone to others, someone strong, someone who’s got it all together, we…

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My Current Thoughts On Life

Below are some random thoughts I’ve been having lately that I felt like writing down just because they’d been bouncing around in my head and I felt like letting them out.

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Lately I feel like I haven’t been taking good care of myself.

I’ve been so focused on trying to be a light for others that I feel like I’ve neglected being a light for myself.

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I want to do good for others. I want to change the world for the better. I want to be the best person I can be.

One of the reasons why is because, according to my parents, I almost died as result of my premature birth. I was born 3 months premature.

I see my life as a miracle, and I don’t want to waste it.

But I’m not perfect. To be blunt: I’ve fucked up.

There are times where I’ve become the kind of person I promised myself I never would be, and that has ended relationships I thought would last forever.

I believe there is a God.

Why?

Because: There’s a feeling within me that there is more to existence than what I can perceive with my senses. I don’t care if I’m seen as “illogical,” and I don’t care if I’m seen as “close-minded,” but: There is nothing anyone can do or say to persuade me that there is not something more to existence.

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I believe that God loves me.

But, at the same time, I believe I am undeserving of God’s love. One of the reasons why I believe I am undeserving is: I struggle with pride. And, if I think to myself I don’t deserve ___, than I won’t be as tempted to think Life owes me ___! I want it! I want it! I want it! like a spoiled brat.

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Joffrey Baratheon — Game of Thrones

What currently drives me to write is the fact that I think so much of the art by my fellow Christians is awful. For example:

I hate saying that. After all: We (Christians and non-Christians) are just doing what we can to be the best we can. But I’m not going to be dishonest about my feelings.

I know my own writing isn’t the greatest thing since sliced bread. I know I still have a long way to go before my writing is ready to be seen by the masses. But there has got to be better art made by Christians. And I want to do what I can to make “better art.”

I feel like a lot of my posts come across as pessimistic. And that troubles me. As a Catholic, I know I shouldn’t be like that — I shouldn’t be pessimistic. But if I were to say “I’m not pessimistic” than I would be lying. And I will not lie.

It felt good to let that out.

In conclusion:

The song that does the best job of conveying my current mood:

Why I’m Worried About “Star Wars: The Last Jedi”

The trailer for the new “Star Wars” movie was released yesterday…

…and I am worried.

Why?

This line:

“I only know one truth: It’s time for the Jedi to end.”

You only know one truth?

Really?

What about the truth that there is — or was, because he’s dead now — good in Vader?

Did you forget about that?

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Return of the Jedi (1983)

My first impression of The Last Jedi is:

Moral relativism, like a kouhun, is creeping into the “Star Wars” saga.

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“…very poisonous.” — Jango Fett

Other lines in the trailer that add to this creeping feeling:

“Light. Darkness. A Balance.”

“…is so much bigger.”

On the one hand: “Balance” has always been a theme in “Star Wars.” More than once, characters have talked of the importance of bringing balance to the Force.

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On the other hand: The Last Jedi seems to be going beyond balance — going beyond the Light Side and the Dark Side of the Force, to uncharted territory.

And that makes me raise a skeptical eyebrow.

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Why?

I mean, what’s wrong with expanding one’s worldview, no longer limiting oneself to notions like “Good” and “Evil”?

Well: If Good — i.e., Light — is just one point of view, not a state of being to strive for…

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Rogue One (2016)

…and it is essentially no different than Evili.e., Darkness — like Luke is teaching Rey that it is, if their dialogue is anything to judge by — “…is so much bigger.” — than I consider that ironic.

Why?

Because: Another “Star Wars” character also taught their apprentice that Good was merely one point of view:

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Revenge of the Sith (2005)

The message is clear:

In the “Star Wars” universe, moral relativism is a tool of Evil. A tool of the Sith. A tool of the Dark Side.

Yet the same education that Palpatine gave Anakin is the same education Rey is receiving from Luke. Only this time, such an education is not treated as a trap — i.e., a means to cause one to fall to the Dark Side — but as gospel.

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In conclusion:

The Last Jedi teaser trailer comes across as an attempt by Disney to show how hip it is by asserting that there is no Good and Evil, and no absolute truth — or, rather, only one truth.

It flies in the face of Disney’s most recent “Star Wars” movie, Rogue One, where notions of Good and Evil existed, and the line between them was clear:

“The Force moves darkly near a creature that’s about to kill.”
~Chirrut Imwe

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And it flies in the face of Luke’s previous experiences: How can Luke only know “one truth” when it was truth — “…there is good in you.” — that redeemed his father? You think he would remember that.

Did Disney watch the movies they paid $4 billion for?

Now:

I thought The Force Awakens (2015) would suck. And I was so happy to be wrong.

I wasn’t hyped for Rogue One. But then:

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My point is: I like Disney’s “Star Wars” movies.

But, if the teaser trailer is anything to judge by, The Last Jedi will be the first of Disney’s “Star Wars” movies that makes me do this:

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Thank you to T. Martin for inspiring me to write this post:

Unsurprising cynicism (towards Star Wars)

Celebrating Beauty: Max Comforts Kate

These last 2 months have been rough.

In February, I started my first job in over 3 years. I’m glad I’m working again, but it can be hard.

Last week, I decided to end a relationship with a friend after I came to the conclusion that communication had broken down and such a relationship was now doing me more harm than good. In short: Briefly, I became the kind of person I promised myself I would never be, and that cost me someone dear. I pray for her, wishing her the best. But I came to the conclusion that it is better for me if she not have such a prominent place in my life anymore.

My deadline for deciding whether or not to continue my college education is drawing near.

There has been at least one bright spot, though: I finished my first screenplay.

It’s a short film about how a young woman’s choice to go naked effects her search for meaning in her life after she returns home upon dropping out of college.

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The reason I say all of this is:

I am bringing back Celebrating Beauty.

Celebrating Beauty was a series of posts I wrote in December — I tried to write one every day — celebrating the beauty in the world.

I was sick of, and depressed by, the 24-hour news cycle of natural disasters, terrorist attacks, rapes, and murders, and wanted to do what I could to shine some light into the darkness.

After the rough time I’ve had lately, I’ve realized that I need beauty in my life now more than ever.

There won’t be any limit on Celebrating Beauty now — I won’t be doing it just for one month.

The first entry in the new Celebrating Beauty series:

Max Caulfield comforting a depressed Kate Marsh in DONTNOD Entertainment’s Life is Strange:

Thank you to Wild Woman Sisterhood for the photo.

A Light In The Darkness

“You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house.  In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.”
~Matthew 5:14 — 16

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Where this picture comes from: Wild Woman Sisterhood