Why I Am Writing “I Have Found It”

For almost 3 weeks, I’ve been writing a short story called “I Have Found It.”

“I Have Found It” — Chapter 1

With this post, I wanted to explain how I see “I Have Found It” — I wanted to explain why the story is the way it is.


Why is the main character named “Eureka”?

Eureka is the name of the love interest in my favorite anime, Eureka Seven.

Image result for eureka eureka seven

There is so much that I admire about Eureka. And when I was thinking of what I wanted my main character to be like, I thought I want her to be like Eureka.

The two have the same names, and do share one other trait — a desire to be “emotionally naked”: open and honest with themselves and others — but that is where their similarities end.

How did I decide who Eureka is?

Eureka from Eureka Seven was one source of inspiration.

When creating Eureka, I mostly drew from my own experiences. For example: Eureka wants to be naked. And being naked is something that I have done twice:

My Experience Being Naked

Getting Naked

In “I Have Found It,” I wanted to convey the experiences I had during those two times, to help describe what Eureka goes through when she is naked.

Another example of drawing from my own life: During my second semester of college, for a week I was as sick as I have ever been, and afterwards, for a few weeks, had to use an inhaler because I had trouble breathing. It negatively effected my grades and was, overall, to put it lightly, a bummer. I don’t know what I was sick with, or why I got sick.

One bad semester. That’s all it took. Hard classes and illness ended my dream before I could make it begin.
~Chapter 5

My third source of inspiration for Eureka is fellow blogger sunshine lou.

Her post Naked vibes are good vibes — where she describes the peace and freedom that being naked gives her — made me think Her story needs to be told.

What I mean when I say “Her story needs to be told,” is this:

After reading a number of sunshine lou‘s posts, I felt that I needed to do what I could to make people aware that 1) There are people who go naked, 2) People go naked for good, wholesome reasons (a person isn’t weird or scary for choosing to be naked), 3) The human body isn’t to be feared, but understood, and 4) Being naked can teach you about yourself and the world.

I wrote “I Have Found It” to say:

“Here is a person who wants to be naked. Don’t judge her. Understand her.”

Is “I Have Found It” supposed to make a person want to get naked?

“I Have Found It” is about a character who spends a lot of time thinking about her nudity — why she wants to be naked, where she wants to be naked, and what being naked will mean for her, her faith, and her family.

Eureka recently came home from college, after dropping out because illness and bad grades made continuing her education impossible. And now, feeling like life is passing her by as she spends her days at home, not knowing where to go or what to do now that her dream of a college education has been smashed, she is trying to find a new inner balance.

Since I’ve been home, I’ve applied for a job. I’m helping my parents with their work. I’m not being lazy. But… It’s not enough. I’m not enough.
~Chapter 5

Which is where being naked comes along.

One day, undressing in order to shower, Eureka decides to, instead of stepping in the tub, step into the hallway. Walking around her apartment naked is an eye-opening experience for her: When she is naked, Eureka doesn’t see her apartment the same way that she sees it when she is clothed. And that change of perspective — that new way of looking at her life — is what Eureka feels she needs in order to break out of the rut that she finds herself in.

“When I’m naked, I feel like I’m as you created me to be, God. I’m humbled. I see myself, and I see the world, with new eyes. I finally feel like I can understand myself better. When I take off my clothes, I feel like I’m taking off whatever it was that stopped me from being who I wanted to be.”
~Chapter 5

It is not my intent to tell people “You should see the world like Eureka does.” My intent is to, as best as I can, tell a story about a point a woman is at in her life.

Is “I Have Found It” an anti-abortion story?

There is a “pro-life” theme that runs throughout “I Have Found It.” What I mean when I say that, is this:

As a result of an embarrassing accident in the middle of sex, Eureka finds herself confronted with the reality that, thanks to the man’s seed not ending up where it’s supposed to, a potential life has been snuffed out — instead of ending up in the warm, safe place that is Eureka’s womb, what could have, after 9 months, become Eureka’s kid, is ending up in the dark, cold place that is the sewer.

Eureka is anti-abortion (pro-life) in the sense that she acknowledges that what would have ended up in her womb is not just  “a clump of cells.” It is something that, given 9 months, will come out of her as a fully-formed human being.

Image result for ultrasound

So, to answer the question “Is ‘I Have Found It’ an anti-abortion story?” I’ll repeat what I said above:

It is not my intent to tell people “You should see the world like Eureka does.” My intent is to, as best as I can, tell a story about a point a woman is at in her life.

For a moment, on the tip of my finger, was what could have become my kid…
~Chapter 2


Feedback is welcome on this post and any of my other posts.

Thank you for reading.

Have a good day.


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