As a result of spending the week with family, doing some soul-searching, and discovering Sunshine Lou‘s blog, I had a revelation:
It’s time to get naked.
Emotionally naked, specifically.
Through circumstances that I’m still trying to make heads or tails of, I realized that I was afraid of getting emotionally naked — of taking a hard, good look at myself.
For too long, I realized, I was content to maintain the status quo of living my life day by day. Just going from one day to the next with no real sense of purpose. Not asking myself “What do I want?” and working to achieve it.
Sunshine Lou taught me that it’s OK to be naked.
That it’s OK to, to quote Jesse J., “Take off what you’ve got inside.”
“Taking off what you’ve got inside” is what I realized I needed to do.
The emotional clothes I was wearing were like a cross whose weight was crushing me.
If anyone wishes to follow me, he must deny himself, take up his cross, and follow me.
~ Matthew 16:24
I needed to deny myself.
I needed help carrying my cross.
I needed to humbly get on my knees in prayer and repentance, and “strip.”
“I was afraid, because I was naked; so I hid myself” is transformed into “I was at peace, because I know God loves me; so I exposed myself.”
~ Healing Perfectionism and Getting Naked Before God
We come in to the world naked. Clothes are, in a way, unnatural. No one is created clothed.
I needed to remember what is, ultimately, most important.
I needed to get back to the basics.
I needed to get naked.
On a related note:
When I think about remembering what is ultimately most important, I am reminded of this scene from the My Little Pony episode “Amending Fences”:
Thank you to The Original Phoenix for showing me “Strip.”
Thank you Sunshine Lou, for showing me how to love my nakedness.