Batman v. Superman – Make It Stop!

Note: This post deals with a subject that people could find triggering.

“Tired” is the word I would use to describe how I feel about Batman v. Superman.

I’m glad that people liked the movie, or found things to like about it. More power to ya’.

I haven’t seen the movie yet. But reviews and analysis I’ve read confirm the impression I got from the trailers: The movie is grim.

Batman v. Superman is the kind of movie that makes me want to stop watching movies.

For almost two years now — ever since I dropped out of college — I’ve been struggling, on and off, with depression. Thinking “I squandered the one chance I had to make something of my life.” And I feel like watching Batman v. Superman would be the worst thing for me right now.

There is a part of me that is afraid that Batman v. Superman could make my depression worse: There is a part of me that is afraid that Batman v. Superman could drive me to consider killing myself.

I know that must sound ludicrous. I’m thinking it’s ludicrous, now that I wrote that thought down.

But when superheroes, who are supposed to inspire me and pick me up when I’m feeling down, wonder What’s the point? I start to wonder What’s the point? too. And then my mind goes to dark places.

*sigh*

I’m sticking with movies like Kiki’s Delivery Service. Movies that teach me This isn’t the end.

I’m not going to kill myself.

 

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