My thoughts on “Only Yesterday”

Unmarried career woman Taeko Okajima takes her first extended trip outside her native Tokyo when she travels to rural Yamagata to visit her sister’s family during the annual safflower harvest. On the train, Taeko daydreams about her pre-adolescent self. As her vacation progresses, she has flashbacks to the frustrations and small pleasures of her childhood, and wonders if her stress-filled adult life is what the young Taeko would have wanted for herself. ~ The synopsis for Only Yesterday

The 1991 anime film Only Yesterday is coming to US theaters on February 26th. It won’t be playing anywhere near me, so I’ll have to wait for it to come out on DVD in order to watch it.

I’m looking forward to seeing it. I’m hoping this film will be therapeutic for me.

Ever since I came home after dropping out of college about two years ago, I’ve been discerning what to do with my life.

Lately, I’ve been afraid that my memories are slipping away from me. Going in the Memory Dump.

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I can’t stand that possibility. Without memories, I feel like I’d be no one. Like life wouldn’t be worth living.

Despite this fear of losing my memory, from time to time I find it hard to not think about the kind of person I use to be: A rotten brat who couldn’t stand to not get his way.

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It’s times like that, that I hate myself.

Between jobs, and with no set plans for my future yet, more and more I find myself feeling like Taeko. Wondering Am I the person I wanted to be? and Who am I now?

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